anger in relationships

angry I am
I shout back often
love is sometimes lost
and returns back rarely
grudges keep surfacing
never letting me love
where is the true love
I have experienced before
help me to love again
and live in peace for ever
love is unselfish they say
but abuse or slavery
it is certainly not
I keep searching
and so do others
true love seems evasive
greed and lust reign
is there a way out, please explain
hearts made pure and God's presence
may make love last forever.